I am ready to scream…. again. Whenever I have my own home, I am making sure that my bathroom is nicely decorated and spacious. Maybe I will get to have the toilet in a room of its own and have the sink and shower in another. I’m talking extra privacy!! All I do is live in the darn bathroom.
I got a phone call from my GI doctor Wednesday telling me to come on to the office. We talked about what I was experiencing. He believed that the flora in my stomach had been flipped, possibly from a dose of an antibiotic for a sinus infection. He told me to continue to work on the liquid diet with the help of some Imodium. I am also taking Bentyl for the cramping. If I am still having trouble keeping my liquids and mashed potatoes in, I am to take a round of Flagyl and give him a call back.
I did however have a meltdown in my cube Friday. I ate ten crackers and I paid. I felt that bad feeling and there came the cramping. I couldn’t handle it. I am tried of going to the freaking bathroom, especially at work!!!!!! If I lose my job, I am blaming my Gastroparesis. I have no energy. I feel as if everything is out of control. I am twenty-two years old for crying out loud. My doctor went to tell me that my immune system is more susceptible to illness; I’m talking ten times more susceptible! I was planning on going back to school this summer to become an EMT. I saw that dream fly out the window. I had previous worked as a licensed pharmacy tech, but that is also out now. I have always kept my license up for a backup plan. If a sinus infection made me sick and required me to take antibiotics, what would the flu or a stomach virus do? I got my hair colored yesterday and it was brought to my attention that my hair is thinner than the last time. Isn’t that fantastic? All I know is I am extremely moody, I can’t keep anything in me, I’m losing weight and I’m exhausted by ten thirty in the morning. My Gastroparesis is beating the fool out of me.