being thankful...

Growing up I remember continually remember fussing about having thick hair. Thankfully God gave me a head full of hair because it is coming out quite nicely due to my every other day clean outs. There's nothing quite like throwing away a palm sized amount of hair each day and knowing that it there is nothing I can do about it, I have to clean out. No I'm not going bald but losing this much hair every day adds up. I've decided to go get my hair cut to see if it would make my hair look some what thicker but you know how it is, once you cut it you wish that you wouldn't have.


I talked to my GI doctor's office this week and it was decided that I am going to continue cleaning out on the schedule that I am on until further notice or something changes - every other day. This is going to get old real quick. Today magnesium citrate bottle count was number twenty-seven. It's kind of funny, I have to go to Target to get my magnesium citrate. I have tried numerous types but it is the only type that tastes decent enough to keep down and have it stay down. When I go to Target, I clean out the shelves - I buy it all. The cashiers look at me like I am insane. I love it!

• "Do you run some type of nursing home facility?"

• "Oh what a cute little glass bottle! I've never saw this before." (I'm laughing to myself thinking yeah, what it does is real "cute" as well.)
  

• "Oh my gosh that stuff is horrible! I've had to drink it before. The last sip is the worst!" (Cashier after my own heart.)

It's a really odd life and situation to be in; who does a bowel prep every other day? I do and I'm twenty-four but I've adjusted and accepted it. It's really weird but it's kind of comforting knowing that this is how it's going to go from here on out hopefully; I'm going to clean out. Last year was so up in the air, it was crazy both physically and emotionally. Am I having surgery, when is my surgery, will my surgery work?

This year will hopefully be different. This year I'm cleaning out. This year I'd like to live just a little. I am a home body. I love being at home. I have everything to keep me occupied and busy. I have never been the type to be bored at home. However this year I'm getting out. Last year I only made it to Philadelphia and having a gastric emptying scan or an anorectal manometry is no vacation. I am going to Indiana to spend some time with one of my close friends which I am extremely excited about. I am also going to New York City. It is going to be interesting to see how I am going to travel and get through or around my clean outs. I am determined to travel.


I am excited about the upcoming year. I am working on some personal changes, a more liquid diet and walking more to help with bloating and distension. Hopefully this year will be a much smoother, less health event but fun year.