I am at that age where people who within my age bracket are either getting married, having children or moving on with their careers (i.e. grad school or better career choices). I am not able to do any of that at the moment and it kills me!! You know that saying two steps forward and one step back, in my life currently it is one step forward and two steps back. I can not seem to get ahead. I am too occupied in my life trying to keep my lunch in, keep my job at the current position (forget job advancements) and have as much as a “normal” daily life as possible. I have heard of GP being an invisible disease and boy isn’t that true. I may look fine on the outside but see me at home or after something has made me sick, it shows.
I made a dumb mistake today and ate ten M&M’s. The pain has not left yet. I don’t understand GP sometimes. My friends are busy with general life and I am trying to keep up with stuff that should “function” normally… like my GI tract. I am having a pity party. I am continually hearing “When are you getting married?” Well honestly, I would like to be able to eat my wedding cake and not spend my honeymoon in the bathroom!! I want to feel good physically when I get married. This is the part of having GP that kills me. I don’t want to compete with my friends, I just feel like we live in two different worlds. Thank goodness Jacob is patient and accepting. I could not do this without him.